The winds of change

Well it has been a little bit hasn't it? How are things you ask, well much better! I can feel it and see that things are finally better. I went to the gym three times this week! Right, I know
I can't believe it either, but it was awesome! I only did 18 minutes on Wednesday but yesterday and today I did the full 30 minutes :)

It has come to my attention that this weight loss thing works better when your bodies on motion, you're eating right, and your positive! I know none of this is "new" news but it's something I can finally grasp and realize. Also eating better and throughout the day doesn't mean you have to never eat the foods you like! I was trying so hard that I didn't see the big picture. TRYING and failing is better than never trying at all!!! So I am TRYING I am giving it my all. Starting with the best meal of the day...

As the month ends and nears my birthday I come the realization that in only 17 days I will be 26. Its not a huge number yes I know, but to me that number means more than just age it means that there is still so much I have not accomplished. Which in turn means its time to knuckle down and make things happen. I also have a goal to work towards...this amazing dress that I do fit into I just want it to fit a little better and feel that much better in because it will look better with a few pounds gone....

Here's to 26!

Blah, blah, blah!

AHHHHHH! Ah okay much better. Sometimes you just have to let it out. The frustrations of day to day life aren't always horrible or excruciating but sometimes they're just ridiculous and obnoxious! Like this weight loss thing for instance. Last week I felt like crap ALL week! I had strep throat so I ate what I could get down. Soup, water, coffee because I couldn't sleep at all! Then it was on to easy stuff to cook because preparing things was just not the business. Salad and some Digiorno pizza one night and hamburger helper on another. Granted you can eat whatever you want you just can't eat the whole pizza. But to make a long story short I totally slacked! Didn't write anything down, didn't keep track, didn't even try. I was just BLAH!

Those are days I dread. I know exactly how I feel and it isn't something I can just shake off. But then again like I said I didn't even try. I tried to sleep as much as possible because that is what made me feel better and then I felt bad for sleeping all damn day. So on Friday I got home, cleaned the kitchen took some medicine, passed out at like 6:45 and slept till 11:00 and then I couldn't go to sleep and I decided to clean out my closet and went to bed around 6 am! Saturday I decided to get up and be productive so I clean the heck out of my apartment! Yesterday I did laundry and just relaxed. Still I feel like I haven't done enough. I don't know what it is but something in me is saying "Jeanette get up and get out! Make things happen, stop saying and start doing!" So after my blog yesterday about going with the punches and doing what needs to be done and making things happen today I got up and put my big girl panties on and have done everything I could to make today a good one!

My focuses have started to change as well as my outlook on certain things in my life. I am hoping these changes make me a nicer person lol, less "abrasive" lets say not necessarily nicer. I want to wake up happy and start the day off in a good mood much more than I do now. I want to stay true to my word better. If I say I am going to work out I need to do it. If I say its laundry time then it needs to be done and hung up. Just simple everyday things in every ones lives that I just hate to do or am too lazy to finish. Maybe its the fact that I am going to be 26 in like 10 weeks and things are finally starting to hit me who knows but something has finally got to give. It feels like it will be hard but the more I do it the easier it will get I think, or at least hope haha!

Whatever's Clever

Sometimes you just have to go with the flow. This will not be long and drawn out. This is direct and to the point. If you can't beat em join em. Those who cant do teach. Me, I try to roll with the punches and make the best of a bad situation. Lately all of my situations have seemed horrible, why because I just sort of gave up and stopped caring. What happens when you do that? You feel like shit, and that is something I am sick of feeling like. So from here on out I am going to do my best at making everyday the best it can be and the best I can be.

Epiphany

So even though this is something I have known in the back of my head I never really grasped it until the other day...bitching doesn't solve anything! It is nice to bitch and moan about things that happen to us or things that go wrong but what does it do? Not a damn thing. I am not saying that if your cable goes out and you call the company and gripe that it won't be turned on but if you call and report the problem civilly then it still gets turned on doesn't it? I guess my point is that no matter how much we complain about things not going our way it doesn't help the situation. What do you solve by yelling, crying, and cursing??? Nothing we just get red eyes, sound uneducated, and like a bunch of babies. I am speaking from my own experience. What does crying solve, nothing if I spend too much money its no one else's fault but my own. If I don't have insurance its my bad. If I don't let the dogs out and they pee on my carpet my fault. Spending 15 minutes complaining doesn't get the pee off my rug. Me taking the ten minutes in the morning to let them out however does. I don't know why I am just realizing it but I am glad I have. It is something I plan on working on it and doing more of the things to keep me from complaining. We will see how it goes ;-)

We fall and we get back up again

Well at least I did this weekend. When you're feeling like crap the last thing on your mind is exercise or eating right. Well this weekend I felt like hammered dog pooh! My ear was going crazy with whatever type of infection is ensuing in it now, my allergies were not being nice at all. Every time I woke up they went crazy! The allergies pills didn't help because they just made me tired and the alkazelser just tasted disgusting and didn't do much either. But I did however eat 3 times a day which I feel made a huge difference! On Saturday I did make some breakfast even though it was at like 11:46 so that was breakfast and lunch and for dinner my sister made chicken friend steak, mashed potatoes and corn. Probably not the best item for me to eat but it was amazing!

Chicken Fried Steak 17 total ww pts

The Breakfast I made Saturday 14 total ww pp

I started cooking when I woke up Saturday night and she was gone so I assumed they went out to dinner so I got an idea on how to use my left over queso and my remaining chicken cuts! I decided I was going to take them and mix them up and roll em up into a tortilla and it was an awesome idea! I took the last of my red potatoes and cut them up and cooked them on the stove and took my salsa and mixed it in with them and they were freaking awesome!!! She came home right as everything was done so I was able to save it for lunch on Sunday. I woke up and made breakfast Sunday as well and decided to eat my potatoes from the night before with it and it was soooo good. I saved the chicken for lunch and munched on that and then for dinner it was one of those Betty Crocker complete meal things.

Pizza Pasta Meal 9 ww pp

It was Pizza Pasta and we had salad and french bread to go with it. So I used 14 ww pp on breakfast again and then 4 pp for my chicken and an extra lets say 6 pp to be safe for the queso and 8 for 2 flour tortillas so 18 pp for my lunch. Which left me with 12 for dinner and that was only 9 because the salad is 0 points and the french bread was 3 pp so that hit my total 44 pp for the day! So I didn't do as bad as I thought. I didn't exercise but I will be doing that today with Jessica after work. The weight watchers really comes in handy!

Whats good about this situation ?....

Freaking everything is good about this situation!!! Holy cow how much stuff has changed since my last post in September. I think I have grown so much since then and I have tried to surround myself with positive people and it looks like it worked :) This is breakfast for me these days

Sooo the news, well its 2012 and things are shaping up, literally! I have done pretty okay so far on this Journey. I need to tweak a few items like making sure I go grocery shopping and buy enough food to last 2 weeks. I love to cook its just trying to figure out how to do it for one person and how to use the left overs is whats killing me at times, but when its something I really enjoy cooking or eating I will take it for lunch to work!

I am using a combo of Weight Watchers, working out, and trying to maybe throw some vegan style stuff in there as well.

I would like to eat a few meatless meals a week or maybe even just cut it out for as long as I can and see how I feel. I am also going to do The Vibrant Cleanse next week as well. I want to clean my body of all its toxins! It sounds harsh but I think I will feel so much better once it is done and I can replace those bad things with clean and fresh items!

I have a few awesome Friends who are dieting as well right now so I have allot of people I can turn to this time when I am feeling frustrated! Nothing by happy news on this end, well that is right now at least bwahahaha.

Courtney my go to for H.E.L.P

Jessica the Barbie to my Stacy :)

 

Kaylan my PIC!!!

One tubby-tubby, two tubby-tubby....

Today I didn't want to wake up. I went to bed about midnight and had some weird dreams, woke up a few times and smashed the snooze button as many times as possible. This is not a goal I have set for myself. So I need to work on that.
Yesterday was my first official WW meeting and I was very excited. Kim our meeting leader was super informative and she has a facebook so I can ask as many questions as I want :) She has lost 104 lbs since 2007 and has kept it off. It is nice to see someone in the flesh that has done this.
I weighed in yesterday and was at 278.4 lbs. I have discovered that when you look at yourself in the mirror you think wow I must way such and such lbs and then you weigh yourself and you're like wow that is a big number...for me yesterday I just kept thinking what got me to this point.
I used to weigh 150 lbs, then 170 and then 200 and for the longest time 220 lbs. Its sad to say that I would give anything to be at 220 again oh my god what I wouldn't do is more like it. But I have discovered that when you think like that the outcome is never positive and never lasts more than a few months.
The goals I have set for myself are small for right now so that I do not get disappointed and give up. A life change is what is needed and I have said that many, many times. Yesterday at my meeting I felt so rewarded and great. Then I went to grab dinner and went over my points. It is days like yesterday that make me want to do better. You can't have the good without the bad and you cant climb that hill without tripping or falling a few times either.
You have to make the things you want in life to happen for you. This is my moment to seize and it scares the hell out of me.